i'm moving.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007 @ 2:29 AM

For once...

The first time...

I feel very lost, empty and moody.

I feel like scolding, shouting, venting and sleep forever.

Dun ask me why.

Maybe the vacuum pack in me is full and needs to be changed.

Somehow, I lost myself.

I changed over the years without realising how terrible I've become.

Terrible in dunno what sense also...just really bad.

Tell me how can I find back the Caryn everyone used to know?

I need a break for some soul searching.

Suddenly, I just feel that I have not many friends. As in really very few:(

I think maybe what a particular friend told me was true...we always have to choose our friends.

But I dun wanna be like this.

I just want back the same old me.

Maybe age is catching up because I tend to forget things very easily nowadays and I'm so pissed with myself!

Also, I think i comment and complain too much. Things dun always go our way.

When sometimes I just want that smth cus it's for the benefit of everyone, no one appreciates.

I hate this kinda feeling.

I admit I take comment very lightly and so much so when I ought to be angry, I just laugh it off.

This shouldnt be the way! Maybe this is what you call learning as you grow.

But I'm very very very lost.

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